Miracle of the “Open Eyes of Mangala Narayani”
On 8th June 2010, I Went to Peedam and I had The Divine darshan of Beloved Amma and returned to my home at around midnight.
On the morning of 9th June, as usual I went to see the Amma and Mangala Narayani photographs as I normally do as the first Darshan of my morning. To my surprise I saw the Eyes of Mangala Narayani open, I was thrilled and surprised; I called out to my wife Dr. Viji to look at Mangala Narayani without telling her what I saw. She looked and saw the same miracle as me and started crying out of joy.
Few minutes Later my house maid came and we asked her to look as well and she too could see the eyes of Mangala Narayani opened beautifully and with a smile. We all performed Puja and I left to go to my office.
In my office I have two Mangala Narayani photos and everyday I offer flowers before I start my work, there also I saw the same miracle of Mangala Narayani; her eyes were open and with a smile. I called my collegues over and all of them were really amazed and some became speechless.
I told my friend and Nadi astrologer about this miracle and he was very happy. He checked the Prasana Nadi for that time and “Oh, my God”, the Nadi leaf has been found and to our surprise and joy the Vasistar Rishi confirmed the Miracle of Beloved Sri Sakthi Amma in the form of Mangala Narayani.
I am happily sharing this blessing with everyone and pray to Beloved Amma to give all of us good health and joy to serve Amma in this life and in coming births.
by M. Rajkumar
Sweet Amma - Thyroid Miracle
Om Namo Narayani
I just wanted to share with you a lovely Amma health miracle that happened to me.
When we arrived here at Peedam in August 2009 I went for the master health check up at the Sri Narayani Hospital & Research Centre. I asked them to add the thyroid test as I had lost about 5kgs in a month, which for me is a lot to lose! That morning while I was in the middle of an ultra sound I hear Jo's voice calling me from behind the screen, "Edo! Amma has called us!"
We leave in the middle of the check up and go over for a visit with Amma (it always happens when you least expect it!). Amma asks "Why was Edo at the hospital?" I told Amma and Amma looked me up and down and said "Edo's body and health is perfect". So I am thinking, "Great"; Do I even need to go back and finish the check up"¯?
Since it was all in motion I finished the tests, but I told the doctors no need to worry Amma just said all is perfect (this is the only hospital you can say anything like that to the doctors and they take you seriously!). So the blood tests came back which were taken before the visit with Beloved Amma.
The thyroid levels are sky high, with the hormone levels for T3 and T4 being three times higher than the maximum levels of the normal range and the TSH which is another hormone being three times below normal range - all indicating "hyperthyroidism" meaning my thyroid is over active and such symptoms such as increased metabolism, weight loss, fatigue, anxiety etc can be present.
The usual remedy is medication to regulate the hormones (which can take 3-6 months or taking the thyroid out completely and being on hormone medication for life if that doesn't work!) So I knew these tests were done before Amma said my health was perfect but told Amma the results anyway and the response from Amma was "Amma will take care" and gave me a bottle of 'theertum' (Amma's blessed water which has super healing qualities).
After that Jo and I went to Malaysia for a week and upon my return I had an intense 6 day fever which felt like a huge purification. So then I repeated the tests and to the Doctor's amazement or "amma-zement"¯ the T3 levels had normalized and the T4 although still high had dropped dramatically while TSH was still low.
The Doctor said without 'medication' this is a huge change in such a short time and that such a drop was indeed a miracle! I asked him what he does when he has a personal problem. He answered: "I think it over, I worry and then I take it to Amma and if Amma says "Amma will take care" it all stops there! That is where faith takes over!!
The Doctor instructed me to tell Amma what has happened and that there has been a huge improvement and take one more bottle of theertum from Amma and we will re-test a week from now. I too anxiously wondered what the outcome of the tests would be; Also tell Amma if Amma heals all my patients like this I will be sitting here in an empty clinic idling my time (smile)!"
When I told Beloved Amma what the doctor said Amma laughed and gave me another bottle of theertam...
Yesterday, I went to get my results and every indicator was within the normal range! Everyone at the hospital was overjoyed! The Doctor said in 21 years of being an ENT specialist he has never seen this happen!
Thanks to Amma's divine blessings,
Om Namo Narayani!
A Dream Comes True
I had a dream around the 3rd week of January 1999. In my dream, I could see the performance of my father’s death anniversary ceremony. After the ceremony, I saw a young person about 23 years old (whom I have never seen before) coming to my house. The person gave me a tray which contained Thirumangalyam, fruits, thamboolam and an invitation card, saying that it was from’Amma’.
In February 1999, I visited Amma at a devotee’s home in Telok Kurau. During the interview (the first time I saw Amma), I quickly realized that Amma was indeed the person I had seen in my dream. I asked Amma if Amma had appeared in my dream. Amma laughed and confirmed that ‘all the auspicious things were given too”. I burst out in tears of joy. About 4 months prior to that, sometime in late 1998 my daughter had a similar dream, in which Sathya Sai Baba came to our house and we were awaiting His darshan.
My father’s death anniversary actually took place in Madras on March 4th. The next day Amma
visited my home in Singapore for Paada Pooja, just as it happened in my dream two months ago, as well as in my daughter’s dream. We had a small group of people awaiting Amma when Amma arrived at our house. Amma materialized an idol of Swami Ayyappan for my daughter.
By a Singapore Devotee
Reveal Your Love
For me my visit with Amma was transformational in allowing me to step into a life of freedom to be me. I was in India that December of the Tsunami. The upheaval in the external world was mirrored by the upheaval that was taking place within me. One morning after Puja, many of us from New York were sitting a small room waiting. We were told that Amma would be seeing people individually. There must have been 40 of us waiting quietly and expectantly, sitting or standing side by side, with not a space unfilled with people.
First, Amma called in the couples and the families; then individuals one by one. Some went in looking nervous. All came out of Amma’s room with a different energy. There was light and peace emanating from their being. I was excited but also nervous about what I would say. I had had a private audience with Amma before in Calgary and also in Dr. Gaynor’s apartment in New York. Each time I had known before hand what I wanted to say. Please bless my husband, my children, and my close friend who was suffering from a severe form of cancer. Amma had always responded lovingly with “Amma takes care.”
This time I had no idea what I wanted to ask of Amma and I was uncomfortable in this place of not knowing. One by one people were called in to see Amma. The room I was waiting in was slowing getting emptier and emptier. My mind was racing. “I will be the next one.” “Maybe Amma doesn’t want to see me.” “Maybe Amma is angry because I am so fidgety at Puja.” There were only a few people left to be seen.
Dr. Gaynor, who with his wife Cathy had been the first ones to be called in, was still sitting in the room. He sat next to me. “How are you doing?” I didn’t know how to respond to this question because if I spoke I was afraid that I would cry. I just nodded my head. Soon I realized that there was no one left but Dr. Gaynor and I. He asked again. I fought to hold back the tears saying “Not so good. I feel that Amma doesn’t like me.” He said something to the effect that Amma doesn’t exist in that world of like and dislike. He may have said something about there will be a gift in what I am experiencing. Amma did call me in.
I was the last person but I was not left out. Amma asked me “How is to be Marisa doing?” For the first time, I didn’t lie and say “Fine.” I spoke the truth and there were tears. I told Amma that I felt that she didn’t like me. I felt that I had done something to offend her. Amma said that I had done nothing wrong and that she loved all her children. When I said that she spent time with other people and less with me, she said that. people needed different things. I took Amma’s words deep into my heart.
My mother’s love was conditional and harsh. I grew to believe that people would love me only if I met their expectations and that I could only love myself only if I felt other people’s approval. That day I decided to have Amma guide me and not my mother. I took Amma into my heart and into my life. Instead of asking myself, “Does this person approve of me and what I am doing?” I asked myself if his action is in accordance with Amma’s teachings of integrity, love and service. I began to trust my inner wisdom which came out of God’s consciousness and love.
This way of making choices and of perceiving the world became the measure by which I work with my cancer clients. I used to feel as if my mother sat on my shoulder, criticizing what I was doing, and whispering in my ear, “That’s bad. You’re bad. No one likes you”. Now I have Amma sitting on my shoulder, whispering in my ear, “You are love and live your life from that perspective.
By Marisa Harris , US
The Presence of Amma in My Life
On June 28th, 2007, I was asked by my partner what I wanted to do on my birthday. I responded with... spend the day with Amma, so that is what we did. During that day, I felt an incredible rush of emotion, love and sorrow. I didn’t know what was going on.
That evening, in my exhaustion, Amma looked at me and pierced my soul — never to be the same. Right then, I knew there was much more; I had an uncontrollable thirst to connect to that again, from that point forward, a trip to India was eminent.
Little did I know what I would discover after my incredible visit to Peedam and Sripuram and during my upcoming months of rebirth... So much to be unveiled. The presence of Amma in my life has provided me with infinite wisdom, incredible strength and joy beyond my knowing. I feel filled with hope, love, compassion, strength, positive energy, possibility, awareness, internal knowing, higher learning.., and wonderment.
I have all and more than I ever asked for. The biggest thing in my life is that I have moved out of my own way to live more fully and completely. I am for the first time in my 46 years, able to fully and completely commit to a life partner... this in itself, is a miracle!! I shout loudly from the heavens above.
I am so grateful my love of seven years had the courage and strength to wait for me to “show up”. From this place, I am so blessed and grateful for the continual presence of Amma in my life and all that it represents. With incredible gratitude....
By Kathleen Kloepfer
I used to teach Physics in the School where Amma was a student.
A lot of things started happening in the school. One day Amma materialized
a lot of vermillion. Another day Amma materialized a red rose and
gave it to me and after sometime passed, the rose turned white.
Other students used to challenge or tease Amma. Once a student
taunted Amma about the miracles and Amma did something and the entire
classroom was filled with flowers. After that happened nobody teased
One day the headmaster called Amma and said he had heard that
Amma could materialize things and said to Amma, "You must materialize
something for me right now." On hearing this Amma materialized
a chocolate for the head master who being a science teacher was
flabbergasted. After that day he did not say anything to Amma.
[After his retirement, the Physics teacher became a devotee of
Amma and spends most of his time at the Peedam]
The older brother of Amma, has many memories of his childhood
with Amma. He said that Amma was always different from other children.
From a very young age Amma did pujas and worshipped the Gods; sitting
under a tree or in the puja room.
He never paid too much attention to Amma as he thought that Amma
was playing with the images. He did not think Amma was serious.
From the age of twelve, every Friday Amma used to visit the family
house in the Ariyur village to worship the anthill over there.
Amma used to go directly from school to Ariyur on a Thursday evening
and stay with a neighbour. On Friday morning Amma would worship
the anthill and go to school from there. Amma was very devoted but
the older brother did not think anything of it then. Many times
the rest of the family also followed Amma to worship the anthill.
The older brother used to hear about some of the miracles from
the kids in Amma's school but he dismissed them as pranks. When
Amma was sixteen, the older brother was in college at Pudukottai.
One day the mother phoned the older brother at the college to say
that Goddess Narayani had bestowed Amma with divine powers, which
have manifested and the whole town was talking about it. The older
brother told his mother that it was nonsense.
Anyway, when he came back home he did not believe it and told
Amma that what Amma did was a gimmick. At that time Amma was chewing
a paan (beetle) leaf and told the older brother to put out his hand.
The older brother refused but his mother insisted that he must take
whatever is being offered to him (by the Goddess) so he put forward
his palm only to receive beetle leaf spit. He was told to drink
it and he did. To his astonishment, it was sweet milk and not beetle
leaf spit. From that day onwards, he stopped questioning and teasing
When a boy of six, met with a cycle accident in Vellore, he was
badly injured and became unconscious for more than thirty minutes.
Women standing nearby ran to Amma for help. Amma hurried to the
scene and placed a foot on the boy's chest. The boy got up immediately
and began to talk as if nothing had happened to him.
A judge, who thought he would not be promoted, got the promotion
by the Grace of Narayani Amma. Another judge, who did not get a
groom for his daughter for many years, got it within three months
with the Grace of Amma.
In Singapore, the devotees got a metal Vigraham (idol) manifested
by Amma, to their surprise the Vigraham turned into a Chinese Goddess.
The Police Officer
Amma poured something into a Police Officer’s hand and it
turned into the famous Thirupathi Laddu.
A poor woman living nearby the Peedam came to Amma for blessings.
Amma gave her some neem (margosa) leaves. After a few seconds, the
leaves turned into a Mangalyam, the holy jewel which is tied around
a bride’s neck at the time of her marriage.
First Encounter with my Guru
On Tuesday, October 6th, 1998 my husband called me at work saying
he wanted to take the family to see and meet a spiritual or holy
one. I was a bit hesitant since I usually visit the temple on Tuesdays
for Hanuman puja. My husband said, “Do not worry, Hanuman
will forgive you.” We went to the home where Amma (the holy
one in question) was staying at the time.
We were eventually at the top of the line for an interview, only
to be told that Amma will not be seeing anyone else until after
puja. There was a bit of confusion and perhaps disappointment in
my mind. Anyway, we took a seat with the rest of the gathering and
for the first time my family and I was able to meet and be blessed
with the sight of Om Sakthi Narayani affectionately known to everyone
After puja an announcement was made by the hostess that everyone
should partake of dinner as per Amma’s instructions. I decided
not to eat until I offered the fruits and flowers which I brought
as is customary in our culture. The hostess came to say that Amma
said that everyone had not eaten and that Amma will not begin interviews
until everyone had done so. It then struck me that something mysterious
or more powerful than I can comprehend was unfolding. I then had
a mouthful of food from my son’s plate.
As soon as I had a little, the hostess came to inform our family
that Amma was waiting for us. I was overwhelmed since I had never
met, heard or read anything of either Amma or the family at which
we were at. We then had a private interview, whereby Amma materialized
a Saraswathi murti for the family. At this interview Amma said to
us that maybe one day Amma will visit our home, words to this day
I will never forget despite the fact that Amma did visit our home
(Amma's home as Amma quite rightly puts it) two weeks later.
Amma has made an indelible impression in all our hearts from that
day on and we pray with Amma's blessings and guidance our devotion
and faith will grow stronger and sincere with each passing moment.
Monday, 1998 October 26th: Amma was at our home (Amma’s home)
for paada puja. Amma then asked to see the puja room which I had
a "makeshift" one in one of my daughter’s room.
Amma informed us that we should have a separate puja room and we
explained to Amma why we did not at the time in question. In my
mind I was wishing that it would be great if Amma could bless the
room which would later be converted into a pray/puja room. Before
I knew it Amma asked to be led to that room, and needless to say
I was quite embarrassed since I was not fully aware of the tidiness
of the room. Amma went to the doorway and looked (blessed the room
to my relief). My heart was overcome with joy and the sense of belonging,
belief and faith, which has kept on growing since.
Saturday, 1999 October 16th: Last of three days Amma spent at the
house, Amma requested that the family come in to speak with Amma
and receive darshan before leaving for another devotee’s home.
Amma gave me some yellow rice in a thali with instructions that
the rice should be wrapped in a yellow cloth and placed in my puja
I was waiting for one of my own thalis to transfer the rice in
when I saw from the corner of my eyes something fall. There was
a piece of yellow silk cloth on the floor, I then asked the only
two people who were close by if they had dropped "this cloth"
or if it had belonged to either of them - it did not. I truly believe
that this "yellow cloth" was no mystery, but was given
to me by Sri Sakthi Narayani our DEAREST Amma. My experiences and
Amma’s love and compassion has kept the family happy and filled
with love even in times of anxiety.
A Glimpse of Heaven in Calgary
The spring of the year 2000 will remain a very memorable time for
some fortunate Calgarians, who had the chance to meet our beloved
`Amma'. My family and myself consider ourselves extremely lucky
to have had the chance to get the divine blessings of `Amma'.
I still remember very well, that Thursday evening after leaving
our daughter for a dance practice for an up coming show, my husband
asked if I would you like to go and see the place where Amma’s
puja was occurring. I had heard about the puja and Amma’s
visit from a friend who had visited Amma the day before. I said
yes and off we went to the home and were surprised to see the number
of cars there.
We hesitated a bit before entering the compound not knowing what
to expect. Our aim was to go and see whether we could arrange for
Amma to come to the North Indian Hindu Temple where the Tamil Murugan
devotees meet. But when we entered the house it was a great surprise
for us to see people of both western and eastern backgrounds dressed
in Indian attire and attending a puja.
Upon entering the puja area, everyone looked so divine and angelic.
We joined in the bhajans and were astounded by everything happening
around us. Later on it was time for us to go back and pick-up our
daughter from dance-practice. Promising ourselves that we'll definitely
return the next day, we left.
The next day was Friday, being a working day my husband decided
to drop me at the place where Amma was staying and go to work. When
we arrived we saw some of our Sai devotee friends and we went and
joined them in singing bhajans. My husband then decided to stay
for a short time and then leave.
After some time, for the first time we saw Amma coming and later
doing the puja we saw Amma again. For me this was the most wonderful
thing that happened in Canada. With great devotion we were able
to participate in a puja performed in Tamil.
In Calgary we miss participating in a puja in the Tamil language.
We do not have a Tamil restaurant, no theatres to show Tamil movies,
no temples and no shops for Tamils. The only Tamil here is inside
Tamil houses, or our monthly Sri Murugan Society gatherings. It
was a big pleasant surprise here for the Tamil speaking Calgarians
when we read in the newspaper about Amma’s arrival in Calgary.
Later on I found out that my husband felt the same and took time
off work to stay and participate in the rest of the puja. We went
home contented and decided to take our daughter also and go for
the evening puja. Our daughter doesn't even speak Tamil and has
never been to our native country. I was surprised to see her getting
so involved in Amma’s puja and stayed till 11:30pm.
The next day, Saturday, brought a turning point in my life. The
three of us again went to meet Amma and after the morning puja we
took our numbers to get an interview with Amma. Our number was 49
and we heard people saying that Amma will not see more than 25 people.
Anyhow, we decided to wait and a friend of ours gave us, her number
46 because her husband got 43. Towards evening around 4:30 we were
blessed by an interview with Amma. That was the most loving and
kind eyes Amma had and Amma's sweet, charming smile and the blessings
given by Amma was like, a welcoming rain in the desert, to our hearts.
Each of us was blessed by Amma with vibhuti, kumkumam and yellow
rice and a beautiful smiling picture of Amma. That day we came home
and talked and talked about Amma. The next day which was, Sunday,
we did not go to see Amma since the crowd was increasing day by
day and thought that we should let others get a chance to see Amma.
After meeting Amma, our family started to light an oil lamp at our
puja place and pray.
When I met Amma, my daughter and husband decided to tell Amma about
a medical condition I have. When Amma heard about it Amma took some
vibhuti in one hand, covered it with the other hand, prayed for
a while with eyes closed and gave it to me saying that I should
be all right. When I heard that I really believed that I'll get
Three days later, while I was getting ready to attend Amma’s
morning puja, I noticed that I could open and close my fingers.
Arthritis had affected some of my joints and my left-hand finger
joints were the worst affected parts resulting in me not being able
to open and close my fingers. I could not believe it. I ran all
over the house, I screamed with joy and then phoned my husband.
I could make a fist now!
Next time when we got a chance to meet Amma, we told Amma about
my hand. Amma said, `It is all faith! If you do anything with faith
it will happen.' I am a living proof that miracles can happen if
you believe in it. After two days Narayani Amma left Calgary. The
last day we were sad and felt that a part of our selves was leaving
us. It rained heavily with thunder and lightning. Amma left, leaving
us longing for the next visit.
By the grace of Narayani Amma I am getting better day by day and
some day will be able to do everything like a normal person. My
family has great faith in Amma and I believe because of our faith,
in the near future we will have the opportunity to be able to visit
Narayani Amma in India. In the mean time Amma dwells in our hearts
and helps and guides us in our day to day life. We wish you a very
Happy Birthday our beloved Amma.
Go West Young Man
This young man lives in Toronto and is a devout devotee of Amma.
He performs daily pujas at his tiny apartment, sings bhajans and
recites mantras all in the name of Narayani Amma. Naturally, whenever
Amma visits Toronto, he will be there to worship and serve Amma.
He has a small job, which doesn't pay him well, but allows him ample
free time to do Amma’s service.
Last May, he got word from Amma’s devotees in Toronto that
Amma was going to visit Calgary for 15 days. Initially it was believed
by everyone that Amma would stop in Toronto on the way to Calgary
and he was pretty excited to be able to be with his beloved Amma.
As the days for Amma’s visit approached, it was learnt that
Amma would not be stopping in Toronto but would go straight to Calgary.
He was crushed! His friends consoled him and suggested to him that
he could go to Calgary and still be with his beloved Amma. But,
he had no money to travel! His meagre paying job did not give him
enough money for such luxuries. So, he intensified his praying.
He would stand in front of Amma’s picture with tears blurring
his vision and streaming down his cheeks, begging for Amma’s
blessing so that he could go to Calgary to be with Amma. And, he
did not see any way to achieve his desired goal.
His friends would ask him often if he was getting ready for the
trip and he would reply with a heavy heart that he wasn't due to
the lack of resources. One of his friends happens to be an Amma
devotee. The day before Amma was going to arrive in Calgary, this
friend called him and asked him if he wasn't packing his bags for
the Calgary trip.
He thought that it was a cruel joke and told the caller so. But
his friend only laughed and said to him, "My dear friend, don't
worry about money. You are flying to Calgary at Amma’s expense.
So pack your bags and be at my place ASAP to go the airport!"
He couldn't believe what he was hearing. He thanked his friend,
hung up the phone and dashed towards Amma’s picture. Oh! that
bewitching smile of Amma almost choked him.
So he arrived in Calgary and found himself surrounded by Amma’s
devotees all of whom seemed to enjoy the good companionship and
the fellowship with the Beloved Amma. He also missed something!
His taste buds were salivating for Kheer, a rice and almond dessert
made with milk. He was very sure that very soon Amma’s cooks
will make it to be shared among all the devotees. But nothing happened!
So, after waiting in vain for a few days, he decided to ask one
of the cooks. He thought that he would out-smart them by suggesting
that they ought to make Kheer for Amma’s consumption. The
lady agreed. Amma, out of the boundless kindness and love for the
new devotees in Calgary, had set up a routine whereby Amma will
be surrounded by at least 15 to 20 devotees during the meals which
Amma would share with them.
He usually did not take part in such gatherings as he would be
busy elsewhere doing service. On the day after he made that suggestion
to one of Amma’s cooks, Amma was having lunch as usual with
very many devotees sitting around and enjoying the prasadham (Holy
Suddenly, Amma told one of the devotees who was in the room to
go and get him. The devotee went downstairs looking for him, but
he was busy doing seva (service). The devotee indicated to him that
he was needed in Amma’s room and he promised to get there
as soon as his task was completed. The devotee returned to Amma’s
room and reported to Amma that he would be there as soon as his
current task had been completed. Amma continued eating and sharing
the food and there was no sign of him.
Finally, Amma finished lunch and washed up. The devotee's heart
sank feeling for the poor guy thinking that he missed sharing from
Amma’s food. After Amma washed up, Amma picked up a cup that
contained Amma's dessert and at that moment in he came. As customary,
he prostrated in front of Amma and sat down. Amma tasted just one
spoonful of the drink from the cup and then called him, handed him
the cup and told him to enjoy the Kheer that he wanted so much.
How did Amma know? Did the cook tell? The cook swears to this day
that she hadn't!
Amma as Lakshmi
I just finished my undergraduate studies at McMaster University
in Hamilton. During the four years of study, I was fortunate to
have had financial help from various sources so I could live away
from my family who insisted that I quit studying and got married
instead. Applications for financial assistance were routinely approved
during the first three years and I was humming along very nicely
in my studies.
Then, in my final year, disaster struck in the form of a new Financial
Director for the University. Claiming that my family lived in the
same area as the University, the Director refused to approve my
application for financial aid. He said that I ought to live with
my family and not at a University residence. I told him that had
I stayed with my parents, I wouldn’t be able to continue my
studies. He still refused. But, University regulations allow a student
to appeal any unfavorable financial decisions.
I took upon this opportunity and appealed twice. Both were turned
down by the same man. I had one more chance and I was getting desperate.
I knew that if things did not change any, the same man would refuse
my third and last appeal and I had to go back home to get married!
When my friend noticed how desperate I was, he suggested that I
surrender all my financial troubles at Narayani Amma’s feet.
I was so lucky that Amma was visiting Toronto at that time. This
friend and I went to see Amma and poured out my griefs at Amma's
smiling form. Amma smiled kindly and said, “Don’t worry
anymore. Amma will take care of your problems. You will successfully
complete your studies.” I came back to the residence feeling
very assured and sent in my last written appeal.
As the day of the hearing of the appeal neared, I felt more and
more nervous, but intensified my prayers to Amma. And, when I went
to the hearing, the Director informed me that a new female faculty
member will join us during the hearing. I didn’t care who
joined or not, I just wanted a positive response. Apparently the
new Faculty member had already been briefed about my application,
because she did not ask or say anything during the entire hearing.
She just sat there looking kindly at me and smiling confidently.
“Who was this woman?”, I started to wonder. “And,
why is she smiling at me without saying anything?” I was in
a daze when the Director informed me later that my appeal had been
successful and my financial aid would be restored to its original
Did the new Faculty member have any part in this favorable decision?
And, who was she? I never saw her again on campus! My friend insists
that Amma came in human form to help one of the children in need.
And, I believe him one-hundred-percent. Om Sakthi.
A Wonderful Experience
On the evening of Tuesday May 30th, 2000, I had the great privilege
of having an interview with Narayani Amma after Amma conducted the
beautiful puja service in Calgary, Alberta, Canada. During my interview
with Amma, I was so much at ease. It seemed like I had been reunited
with someone I had dearly loved for a long, long time.
Amma gave me the most brilliant and beautiful smile. There was
so much love and divine energy in the room. Amma’s eyes were
filled with love, Amma's nature, Amma's whole being was LOVE. Amma
very lovingly asked me my name, although I am sure Amma knew. Amma
looked into my eyes and said, “What do you want?” I
replied, “Amma, all I want is your love and blessings and
with God’s grace may I do everything right in life.”
Amma was laughing playfully and Amma affirmed, “You will do
everything right in life and you have my blessings.”
Then Amma asked, “What do you do?” I was a little startled
and I asked whether Amma wanted to know what I did in my personal
life or what my profession was. Amma said, “Your profession.”
I told Amma about the Corporate Organization I work for and my position
in this organization. I also told Amma that I was not very happy
in this department and wanted to move on to another area.
Amma said, “Be patient, everything will work out.”
Amma is so playful and so sweet, Amma is full of love. I asked Amma
to autograph a picture for me. Amma gladly obliged and said, “Get
me a pen.” A young man was standing outside Amma’s room
and I asked him for a pen. I took it to Amma, Amma looked at it,
smiled and said, “This is a pencil, I need a pen.” So
I went to the young man again and this time he gave me a pen.
I gave it to Amma, but it would not write because the picture was
glossy. Amma laughed and said, “Get a marker, it would work
better.” So this time I asked the young man for a marker.
He gave me a marker which I gave to Amma. Amma nodded this time
and signed "Amma"on one of the pictures for me. Amma signed
“With Love, Amma". I was allowed to touch Amma's lotus
feet, Amma blessed me and I left Amma's room feeling elated and
When Amma was leaving Calgary, I said to Amma, “Amma you
have stolen my heart, when will you come again.” Amma said,
“Amma is with you always, Amma is not going anywhere, call
on my name and I am with you always.” I said to Amma, “Amma,
I know you are with me in spirit always, but when can we see your
human form again in Calgary.”
Amma, started to laugh and Amma would not tell me when. Instead
Amma blessed me and handed me a flower. During my time in meditation,
whenever I am contemplating along with the Supreme Being I believe
in, Amma too comes in my thoughts. I know Amma is with me always.
Amma is ever protecting and guiding me.
Our Meeting with God
These stories have already been written. From the first letter,
I know it's with us, even as we start to write. The matter is simply
to set it out so that it can be understood. I have become aware
that all the events in life are planned - it's all there, laid out
only awaiting the eventual acting out, in time, as God wishes.
These stories are part of our relationship to God - told before
countless times, in countless ages, with as many hues and subtleties
as a rainbow. Bequeathed to us in all of our collected ancient books
of wisdom - the Vedas and the Upanishads, the New Testament of Christianity,
the Talmud of Judaism, and the books of the Bahias, Buddhists, Confucianism,
Islam, Sikhism, Taoism, Zoroastrianism amongst many others and those
that have been long forgotten. This particular story is to be written
by many people in this graced age.
Graced because of the wonder of the appearance of God, yet cursed
because of the cause of the occurrences of God. This story will
be witnessed in the future and be told again, countless times, to
the ends of times. My own reasons for writing of my experiences
are several folds.
As I wondered how to share Amma's presence in my life I thought
it might be better to leave this written work to someone else; someone
with more experience at life and at writing and a real in depth
knowledge of the Hindu faith. I thought it would be best for me
to participate, experience and enjoy my faith process without the
duty of recording it and sharing with others.
As I saw and learned I realized I needed a way to sort through
all my experiences so that I could understand them. I had to write
them down, organize and sift through everything so that I could
understand the meaning. I have not until now considered myself a
writer; a photographer, yes, a businessman, certainly, but not a
As I start to write I conclude there is no topic I would more prefer
to write of - my personal relationship with God. One of my many
thoughts was that I would undertake this task as my gift to God
and to be shared with others. A gift to God!; maybe more as a small
token of my astonishment of God's real, tangible presence.
As I sift through and organize my thoughts for this story I now
realize this is God's gift to me - in God's subtle ways, the information
I am sharing is the journey to the fulfillment of my own faith in
understanding God. My soul search is my offering to God. I know
divinity will engage me and guide me to complete my part of this
honour. I always wonder where this particular path will lead me.
Narayani Amma's presence in my life enriched my faith in God so
much I started a dialogue with Father Robert Smith, a Roman Catholic
priest at my home parish in Ottawa.
Amma's wisdom is offered through the rich history and environment
of Hinduism and often I remember my talks with Amma and interpret
them through fresh reading of The Bible. As well I often interpret
the Bible through Amma's wisdom. There is no question to me my faith
has grown through Narayani Amma's presence in my life. I have come
to believe that the word of God is omnipresent and no different
when spoken through Christ and the disciples as it is spoken today.
I believe whether we are aware or not that we all are involved
in an event of truly historic proportions. The appearance of an
Avatar is a rare event, occurring in intervals of thousands of years
and always becoming part of a culture's sacred heritage; in any
culture. It's happening right now for those who reach to touch it.
Narayani Amma's appearance as an Avatar is unique; this is the first
time Amma has taken Form this way. It is a story completely foreign
to my North American culture and psych.
To embrace the reality that God presently walks amongst us - in
person - with names – in this age - how can I describe this?
A God whose outward form we can see, talk to and touch if we are
permitted. Miracles that can be seen, now! I am hopeful these stories
will be valuable to those who are approaching God - as God approaches
My Son's Approach
I first met Narayani Amma in November of 1999. I was introduced
by my fiancée who was introduced by a network of friends
and family in Calgary. My fiancée had left for Calgary and
I believe this was my first meeting with Amma by myself. By the
grace of God my 16 year old son had graciously agreed to come out
to see Amma. He and I watched part of the Havan or Fire Puja - if
one watches carefully Angels can be seen dancing in the flames.
Later in the evening I met with Amma. We spoke of my son and Amma
asked about him and his life. As I was leaving Amma got up from
the cross legged position and came over towards me. Amma held out
the hand, palm down, and started the sequence that I had learned
would lead to a manifestation of a divine object. Amma manifested
a small silver cross, inlaid with black, and said it was a gift
for my son.
What touched me from Amma's gift - aside from the way that Amma
manifests objects which is always amazing to me - was the item Amma
selected to manifest. Of all the Hindu sacred objects Amma might
have chosen Amma instead chose a Christian one. By the reverence
my son has shown for his cross I believe Amma has started my son
on the path to his approach to God.
I met Amma again in Scarborough, Toronto and my fiancée
and I were both invited to Amma's Peedam in India to celebrate Amma's
birthday on January 3rd, 2000. We were planning our wedding in February
of 2000 followed by our honeymoon in Australia. We decided that
Amma's invitation and hospitality would be a perfect opportunity
to visit India and changed our travel plans at the last moment for
a visit in February.
I had asked Amma if Amma would marry us when I met with Amma in
Ottawa and Amma had graciously agreed. We arrived via London on
February 8th, 2000 as guests at Om Sakthi Narayani Siddhar Peedam,
Amma's Peedam, east of Vellore in Southern India.
Upon arrival, Amma said Amma would tell us the day of our wedding
and, on February the 13th, Amma selected February 17th as our wedding
day. We learned later that was an auspicious date for weddings and
many people were married that day in India. Even though we had brought
some wedding dress from Canada, we were told that all arrangements
would be made for us. We were asked to be ready early in the morning
on the 17th and in due time I was whisked away to be dressed, as
was my fiancée.
When we met again later on in the morning we hardly recognized
each other - I with my Maharajah's cap, mala and wedding attire
and my fiancée in her elaborate make-up, jewelry and a gorgeous
silk Sari; all by the gracious gift of Amma.
Our wedding procession started, complete with a 3 member band,
friends from Canada, America and the Peedam, and school children
from Amma's school. We were guided by - everyone - through our wedding.
There was no rehearsal and we were helped through blessing after
blessing until we were seated in front of Amma.
We were married by early afternoon and celebrations finally concluded
about midnight. Our marriage by Amma has created a really amazing
spiritual connection between my wife and me. The connection is so
strong it has the strength of a physical attachment – even
though it's a spiritual one. When we are physically separated, she
is always right beside me and our relationship between ourselves
and with God strengthens daily.
I am an amateur photographer. For many years I have been interested
in cultural heritage and, in fact, have volunteered with The Museum
of Civilization in Ottawa to photograph many of the cultural events
that the museum hosts. With this keen interest, I have tried to
capture on film as much of Amma's activities as possible whenever
possible. While we were in India we were granted access to sites
that usually were forbidden to photographers.
While Amma was visiting Calgary in May 2000 I became fascinated
by Amma's relationship to Narayani. I was trying to understand exactly
what it meant and photographed Narayani often during and after many
Pujas. During the Bathing Puja, Amma was pouring milk over the 1
foot high Narayani statue which gave Narayani a slightly milky,
As I viewed through the lens that hue spread to become an all-encompassing
feeling. The feeling was like the taste of the sweetness of honey.
It was presented as an absolute fact that the sweetness radiated
from Narayani and fed into the world. I have heard in the Bible
about the sweetness of God's presence and I believe I more fully
understand that truth through Narayani. Whenever I contemplate God,
the sweetness of that vision stays with me always.
Hopeful in Calgary
During the latter part of April 2000 and for the first week in
May, before I had heard anything about Amma, I had unusual dreams.
One dream was that I was in a line of people waiting to meet a holy
person (who, I recorded, looked kind of like a young Fidel Castro!).
Another very vivid dream centreed around a black cow. So it felt
familiar when I saw the photo of Amma with a black cow on the small
poster Amma gave out. During that same time I had unusual waking
experiences also. I was told about Amma and Amma's visit on May
9th or 10th and things began to fit together.
I felt unprepared and anxious when I met Amma, so I think that
time was not as rich as it might be now. During the time with Amma,
Amma closed the eyes and seemed to meditate for a minute or two
before answering a question I had asked, and I felt a real longing
to be able to just stay with Amma. There were many feelings; I loved
the easiness and of Amma's laughter and Amma's wonderful eyes.
I was drawn back to the pujas. One in particular, when I was standing
in a side doorway very close to Amma, I could see the fire reflected
in Amma's face and the grace of Amma's movements was very unforgettably
beautiful. I found myself feeling hopeful about and not wanting
to miss Amma's talks.
One of them, on Karma, had such clarity, strength and gentleness,
I did not want it to end. I wondered how it could be that all of
us had not known all of this, always! I wished for longer talks
and for more of them! Now, long after Amma’s stay in Calgary,
I continue to have a feeling of longing and all the dreams I have
now seem to be connected. I think about things Amma said in the
talks, about questions Amma asked me when I met Amma that I did
not know how to answer, and about feelings I had and did not have.
I feel strongly re-directed and I am very grateful for Amma's visit
Kissed by an Angel
I felt like my heart had been kissed by an Angel. I used to suffer
from chronic fatigue and several different doctors offered different
diagnosis with zero results. Shortly after the trip to Calgary to
see Amma, I had an appointment with a herbalist who correctly diagnosed
the illness as a mere B12 deficiency! Thank you, Amma. I now realize
that healing comes in many different ways – Amma’s love
is one of those ways. I feel wonderful and my experiences with Amma
have added a layer of love in my life.
It has been a Wonderful Honour
Narayani Amma has been part of my meditations and healing practice
since 1999 December. For me, it was a wonderful honour to be in
the physical presence of Amma. I was undergoing some traumatic health
challenges at that time and was unable to walk. After meeting with
Amma and being blessed with vibhuthi, I have found a big difference
in the healing process.
For this, I am eternally grateful. The experiences with Amma have
reinforced my trust and faith in the Universe. I also find that
I have inner strength and courage to move forward with my life.
I find it easier to surrender, knowing that I do not have to fight
every battle and that Amma will take care.
Meeting Narayani Amma has given me an insight into what enlightenment
is. At the first house I went to see Amma, we couldn’t get
a seat in the room where the puja was going to be held, so we sat
in an adjoining room. I was caught up in my own emotions and wasn’t
really connecting to what was happening. I did manage to catch a
glimpse of Amma as Amma passed through the crowd, but there was
so much commotion that I did not feel Amma's presence. We sat and
chanted, but I wasn’t really connected to what was taking
Then Amma began speaking through the interpreter. Amma talked of
the different types of love - animal, human and divine. It was as
if Amma was speaking directly to me because that was the issue I
had been struggling with. The Universe was teaching me this concept
and my fear of loving this way and letting go of the old way was
causing me much pain.
After Amma's talk, I felt lighter. I contemplated what was said
and realized that divine love would bring true joy and happiness
into my life. I know that it will take time to move up into that
love, but I am confident that with practice I will get there.
The next time I saw Amma was at the celebration at the University.
This time when Amma entered the room, I was very moved by the power
of Amma's presence and the love that emanated. I love watching Amma
laugh. It is as if Amma's whole body is laughing.
My next experience was at a different house than the first one.
We spent the whole day there. I felt much more relaxed and ready
to absorb what was happening. The puja was more powerful to me although
I still was not as mindful as I wanted to be. What truly amazed
me was the level of giving that was taking place. I was moved with
the realization that Amma is here to give to us, 24 hours a day.
I was given a new insight into the meaning of the word giving.
My heart began to pound as someone announced that Amma would be
meeting with people. I had thoughts of being unworthy and that I
wasn’t at the right level spiritually to meet Amma. I had
thoughts that Amma would see right through me to my unworthiness.
Luckily, I was able to push these thoughts aside so as not to plunge
into my fear.
I stood in the line with the others and constantly reminded myself
that we are all in our paths and no one is better or worse than
the other. Then it was my turn. I was nervous and my heart was pounding.
Amma looked at me and smiled. I knelt down and took the holy water
in my hand and made a big slurping noise drinking it. I felt foolish.
The energy in the room was beautiful. Amma asked me what Amma could
do for me. I looked away. I told Amma that I had pain in my heart
chakra and that I found it difficult to give or receive love. Amma
told me that I would be healed through service. Amma tied a string
around my wrist. As Amma did this, I asked Amma, “What kind
of service?” Amma's body shook with joyful laughter. I felt
very loved at that moment. Amma looked at me and said, “Service
to humanity. Amma will lead.”
The smile on my face as I thanked Amma must have reached from one
end of the room to the other. I floated out of the room and was
filled with a beautiful energy. I finally felt connected to what
was taking place.
That evening’s puja had a new meaning to me. Amma spoke of
the importance of teaching children reverence for God. I knew then
that I needed to talk more about God to my thirteen year old daughter.
We are not part of a traditional religion, but now, when I am tucking
her in I remind her to thank God for the blessings. We have had
great conversations about God.
About a week after Amma left, I was given a gift. I dreamt that
I was given enlightenment. I could feel what it was to be truly
above emotions and attachments, and to be in pure joy. I have a
new understanding of what the struggle is for. I am so grateful
to all the people who worked so hard to bring Amma to Calgary. I
am also grateful to Amma for all of Amma's wonderful gifts.
My first contact with Amma occurred in October, 1998. While I was
visiting my son in Toronto, a family friend suggested that we should
go for dharshan of a spiritual person who was visiting from India.
So, I took my family to the house where Amma was staying. We waited
patiently for Amma's dharshan and a private audience.
When we entered Amma’s room, we immediately sensed that we
were in a very special presence. Amma was patient answering my families’
questions, sharing divine wisdom and infectious laughter. Amma blessed
our happy hearts with some fragrant vibuthi that Amma manifested
and we went home happily. We had the pleasure of seeing Amma several
times over the next few days. We had one wish – the honour
of hosting Amma at our humble household in Calgary.
Amma promised that Amma would come to Calgary to satisfy the spiritual
yearnings of several of the devotees and in May, 2000, Amma delivered
on the promise. In addition to being part of the organizing committee,
I was given the honour of being one of five hosts for that visit.
Even though there was a tremendous amount work involved in hosting
such an event, we never felt fatigue as Amma’s abundant energy
was flowing through all of us. Even the visitors who came to our
houses commented on the remarkable level of energy that they sensed.
During Amma’s 25-days stay in Calgary, we witnessed several
miracles. We saw people who were wheelchair-bound gain enough strength
through their meeting with Amma, to begin to amble once again. We
came across people who, after meeting Amma, gained a sense of clarity
and perspective about their life. It was amazing to see the number
of people that assembled to see Amma who were at a crossroad in
their lives, and afterwards have an awareness of the direction they
were to take.
Some people, after having gained a personal audience with Amma,
came out crying as if they had a release and became free from some
of the emotional bonds that weighed them down. This phenomenon occurred
even in young children. Others remarked on how Amma would be able
to answer questions that were on their minds even before they had
a chance to vocalize them. A few people commented that Amma was
aware of the things about them or their pasts without any disclosure
Everyone, however, noted that there was a sense of peace throughout
the house, especially during Amma’s pujas. One of most anticipated
feature of Amma’s daily rituals were Amma's discourses in
which Amma would discuss a typical situation about life and spirituality.
In these discourses Amma took seemingly complex life situations
and convey them in simple terms to the audience.
After each session, people would talk amongst themselves about
the wisdom that Amma had just shared. All of the topics were relevant
to the current life styles and even though they applied to society
in general, most people felt as if Amma was talking directly to
them, and they all looked forward to Amma’s next discourse.
In the time that we have known Amma, we have experienced a spiritual
awakening and a higher level of consciousness. We feel privileged
that Amma stayed at our house (which in reality IS Amma’s
house as Amma would rightly point out!) and we feel blessed. We
are very grateful to Amma.
Did Amma follow the Paayaasam?
My family and I went to pay our humble salutations to Amma while
Amma was visiting Calgary in May, 2000. The lady who was in charge
of preparing Amma’s meals wanted to make paayaasam for Amma
but did not have any Cream of Wheat in that household. Since we
had a vehicle (we drove from Regina), she asked us to buy some Cream
of Wheat at a grocery store.
We bought the item, went back to the house for one last visit with
Amma and left the house forgetting that we had the item to deliver.
We drove back to Regina and while unloading our van my husband discovered
the package of Cream of Wheat. I felt so guilty! I prayed silently
for Amma’s forgiveness and made a silent vow to offer Amma
some paayaasam as soon as possible.
Every Friday, we hold special bhajans in our house. For the one
that fell on the Friday following our Calgary trip, I opened the
Cream of Wheat package, washed its contents very carefully and made
the paayaasam that should have been prepared in Calgary days earlier.
While praying, we offered it in front of Amma’s picture and
I again begged Amma to forgive me for my forgetfulness.
After the bhajans were done, we looked in the paayaasam container
and then stared at it with open bewilderment. In it was floating
one tiny orange yarn that could have come from Amma’s lap
cloth! Did Amma actually follow us to get the paayaasam that was
owed to Amma? We will never know. When my brother mentioned this
to Amma in a later visit, Amma laughed merrily and informed him
that Amma lives in our house (Amma’s house as Amma rightly
points out) always.
Murugan in a Ball of Rice?
My husband is an ardent devotee of Lord Murugan. During the month
of November, all Murugan’s devotees observe a special six-day
fasting in the name of the Lord. The rituals vary among devotees,
but my husband was very particular that he followed his own rituals
which consisted of semi-fasting the first 5 days and full fasting
on the sixth.
We are fortunate to have the privilege of hosting Amma whenever
Amma visited Canada. Amma happened to be staying at our house during
that year’s Murugan fasting festival. My husband tirelessly
served Amma, but he also maintained his fasting schedule. So, on
the sixth day, he went without food for the whole day and by midnight
still hadn’t eaten anything.
Amma usually asks the devotees if they had had their meals. When
Amma asked my husband, he told Amma that because it was the termination
of his fasting, he must bathe first and then only eat food that
was freshly prepared. Amma figured it would take at least a couple
of hours before this devotee could eat again and Amma couldn’t
bear the thought of this devotee starving even for that long.
Amma asked me to bring some rice and curries in a bowl. When I
did, Amma mixed them up, rolled the rice into a tennis-ball like
orb and handed it to my husband. My husband, not wanting to break
his own ritual, humbly refused. Amma asked for an explanation. How
could he tell Amma that he did not want to break one of his own
(silly) rituals against Amma’s offering? So, he fibbed blaming
it on Lord Murugan.
He said that Lord Murugan would not forgive him if he broke his
ritual on the last day. Amma laughed and persuaded my husband to
take a bite of the rice ball insisting that Lord Murugan will understand.
When he did, his teeth clicked on something metallic inside the
rice ball. Alarmed with fear, he dispersed the rice ball. What did
he see?, a smiling Murugan statue with His bestowing hand showing
Cell Phone Mystery
When Amma visited New York City in the fall of 2000, I was lucky
to be with Amma and serve Amma throughout the stay. Just before
that trip, I had acquired a digital cell phone, which I happily
handed over to Amma for personal use. Amma gave out that cell phone’s
number to all the devotees all over the world and to the workers
at the Peedam in India.
Needless to say, that phone was very heavily used for both making
and receiving calls most of them were of the International variety.
My brothers warned me that unless I put a cap on its usage, I could
end up with a huge bill at the end of the month from the cell phone
service provider. I reminded them that all our money is Amma’s
money and if I had to part some of it to the service provider, so
Amma left for India after a wonderful 16 days’ stay in Canada
and in the USA and I returned home a very happy man. I had also
noticed an anomaly in the phone’s capability. We could dial
overseas calls on that phone while we were in NYC, but couldn’t
do it as soon as we entered Canada. So, I phoned the service provider
to ask them to fix it. “What is your phone #?” they
asked. When I told them, their reply was, “Never heard of
it. It is not in our computer system.”
I then gave them the phone’s ESN and also the contract# that
I had gotten from them. Their answer to all of this? “Never
heard of it!” So far, I haven’t received a bill from
any one! So I did not have to pay a huge telephone bill as my brothers
had warned. Did Amma fix their computer? We all believe that Amma
had a hand in this mystery. Thank you, Amma.
Faith by Amma's Balvikas Children
During Amma's visit to Singapore, a gentleman and his wife came
to see Amma for blessings. The wife was a patient diagnosed with
HIV, and was temporarily discharged from the hospital for the purpose
of visiting Amma.
Two weeks after they received Amma's blessings, more blood tests were done and the hospital doctors were surprised that the results now showed a negative for HIV. Further tests thereafter confirmed that she was no longer HIV positive and was discharged from the hospital. Till today, she is still leading a healthy and normal life.
A Singapore devotee once asked Amma to visit a Hindu temple where
he went to pray. Amma told him that there is no need for Amma to
be physically there as Amma's omnipresence is always there through
One day while the devotee was praying to Durga Kali, he noticed that her head projected out from the statue and looked right at him. After which, Durga's head returned to its original position. This phenomenon confirmed to him, Amma's omnipresence in the temple. As a mark of respect for this wonderful experience, this devotee makes it a point to fast on every Thursday evening to Friday evening.
The Power of Amma's Blessings
A 45 year old wholesale fruit distributor met Amma during an interview and told Amma that he needed to sell his private house for minimum of $2 million to meet his business cash flow problems. He had tried to sell it for the last 3 years but could not find a buyer who is willing to pay that price and he was under tremendous pressure from the bankers to settle some business loans.
Amma assured this devotee that his house will be sold and blessed
him. The next morning at 11.00 a.m. a lady contacted the devotee
and offered to buy the house at $2.5 million. The next day, this
devotee visited Amma to thank and to further seek Amma's blessing
to buy a new house with a budget of $350,000. After he left, he
managed to buy one on the following day within his budget. To show
his appreciation, he supplied cartons of fresh fruits daily to the
home where Amma was staying till the end of Amma's visit.
A gentleman was retrenched from a manager's position from a good
company and had been jobless for one year. He tried to get a job
at the same pay and status but was unsuccessful. After meeting with
Amma in Singapore and received Amma's blessing, the next day, he
receive a call from a company for an interview and was accepted
for a manager's position at the same pay rate as he had at the previous
job. He was very appreciative of Amma's love and blessing in helping
him to get a new job.
My Visit to Peedam
As we were travelling, I made a cardamom garland for Amma. We reached
the Divine abode of the most loving Mother a few hours later and
I was so happy to see the temple even from the outside. I thought,
finally I have reached my beloved Mother. In my mind I said, “Amma,
I came from you and I know I am going back to you!” I may
be a naughty child or a good child. I may be a precious plant in
your garden or an unnecessary weed. Whatever I may be, I am here
with your immense grace!
We went to Kamala Nivaas, Peedam’s guest house, checked into
a room and then went to the temple. The first darshan was that of
the Naaga Narayani and the Swayambhu Narayani, the Devi who came
out of the earth on her own will in the form of the Lingam and the
Panchaloha murthi of the Divine Mother, Shukra Vaara Devi Narayani.
This is the idol that came out from the Turmeric water. This Swayambhu
has the siddhas on the gopuram and it is so beautiful.
Next was the sanctum Santorum of the big Devi Narayani and as we
went into that Sannidhi, I was filled with tears and my heart choked
with emotion to see the most beautiful Devi holding a beautiful,
silver veena in Her divine hands. The Devi is so big and the veena
is so cute. It was the size of a real veena which we can play. I
was told that they had made Saraswathi decoration that day for the
Devi! What a blessing this is (since my instrument of choice that
I can play is the veena)! This is not coincidence. Only that day
was that alankaram.
Next I went to the Huge Durga Devi murthi were there is the Shri
Chakram and the vigraham of Aadi Narayani. I thought of all of my
friends, each one of them, believe me, and of course I chanted Amma's
Gayathri Manthra, and kept singing all Amma’s bhajans all
the time. I sang the new bhajans and literally, all of my friends
were with me (in spirit). I remembered what each one of them told
me before I left to visit Peedam.
After this, I went to the Shanthi Mandapam, and waited for the
arrival of Amma!
This is the most special moment and the eyes are searching for the
beautiful sight of Amma with Devi Narayani coming for the puja.
Listening to the Nadaswaram, my heart started throbbing and the
soul cried out loud, "I cant wait anymore!
As the devotees waited with folded hands to greet the divine mother,
our Beloved Amma with Devi Narayani in arms, walked into the Shanthi
Mandapam. Amma’s lovely eyes greeted us with a beautiful smile
and conveying subtly the message, "Amma has brought you here!”
Indeed, Amma has brought me to Amma’s abode!
It was a wonderful abhishekam, alankaram and puja and throughout
in my mind I was singing bhajans and chanting Amma’s divine
name and the Gayathri and Kumkum manthras, blessed to sit at the
first row just next to the red carpet.
Soon after the puja, Amma sat on the dias to give theertam to the
devotees, and when we went to Amma, my in laws offered the garlands
to Amma and we were all blessed to see Amma with the garlands. Amma
gave such a blessing to my in laws and also gave a bottle of theertam
to my father in law and blessed him with a healthy life.
Then my parents received blessing and Amma spoke to them with a
very special love and care! They were seeing Amma for the first
time and my family members know about Amma only through me.
When it was my turn, I first gave the letter that my friend sent
through me to Amma. Amma was very happy to receive it and blessed
with a beautiful smile. When I received the theertam, Amma asked
me when I came and then asked how long my trip was. I told Amma,
as long as Amma says! Amma smiled and gave blessings and I told
Amma, that all the devotees from Calgary have sent their special
love to Amma! Amma blessed everyone with beautiful smile and Abhaya
With Amma's grace I stayed for three days, and left with Amma's
blessings on the Saturday evening. A lady devotee from Toronto had
been doing seva for the past year and her husband was also doing
seva at the Sri Narayani Hospital. She was the one who did puja
for the Swayumbu and Naaga Narayani. We became friends, as I was
there for the early morning abhishekam at 5am at the main temple.
The Naga Narayani is so graceful I sat inside the Garbha Graham
of the snake pit and sang the new bhajan “Naaga Narayani”
On the Friday morning before we left, we witnessed the Amma's Vishwa
Roopa darshan, “that’s when Amma stands on the bed of
flowers and chants "Om Namo Narayani". Then, we followed
Amma to see the Tulasi Puja, Sun Puja, Gaja Puja, Naaga Puja and
the Gho Puja.
The Gho puja was very special. I sat in front of Amma while witnessing
the puja, which was also very special. The divine Mother Cow, Indrani
was was in her advanced stage of pregnancy. After the Gho puja,
Amma gave me a lime prasad and also Paada Namaskaram to me and my
On the Friday evening, the puja at the big Devi Narayani temple
was just so great and unique. We witnessed Amma doing the Lakshmi,
Durga and Saraswathi Sukthams waving the peacock fan! That time
when Amma came out of the sanctum Sanctorum, Amma gave me a garland
of turmeric in my hand and said, “Take 9 turmeric with you
to Calgary, (to give the bhajan singers), and distribute the rest
to the devotees here”. I did as told and the precious prasad
from Amma reached those devotees.
On the Friday night, at the guest house, some devotees, all bhajan
singers and myself sat outside at the corridor and started singing
Amma bhajans. They were eager to hear all the new bhajans that we
are blessed with. A Toronto devotee also wrote lots of bhajans on
Amma and she shared her bhajans with us. We were singing and singing
till after midnight! A devotee from California who was also at the
guest house said that she enjoyed it so much and felt the divine
On the Saturday morning, as we were waiting for Amma's arrival,
I first took the Pada Namaskaram of Amma's birth mother. I was so
blessed to see her first at the guest house and then at the Shanthi
Mandapam. I was holding a beautiful red and orange rose garland
in my hand to offer to Amma, and I told Amma in my mind that this
garland is from all the devotees in Calgary.
You know, in India, the florists make lovely garlands. This was
specially made for Amma, by the temple florists. It was very heavy
with beautiful multi color roses that are the rose had red and orange
color in it. I also said a prayer "please wear it for some
time so that I can see you with the garland really well, so that
I can narrate what I saw to my lovely friends at Calgary ".
Amma is so wonderful, Amma hears our prayers and never disappoints
Soon after the Vishwa Roopa darshan, I offered the garland and
Amma wore it beautifully and walked a beautiful smile, majestic
gait, mischievous looks and lovely blessings to all the Calgary
devotees. On behalf of all the Calgary devotees, I also prayed to
Amma, to visit Calgary again, very soon.
When I left on Saturday evening, Amma blessed me again, this time
with lots of kumkum and lovely blessings. Amma asked me when I was
leaving for Calgary. I told Amma that everything depends on the
divine will and that only Amma knows! Beautiful smile again!
So, we travelled back to my in laws place in Chennai. With Amma's
grace, I saw the beautiful birds singing for Amma, the lovely flowers
blooming only for Amma, the sun shinning brightly radiating Amma's
shakthi , the cooling moon showing Amma's beautiful face to all
of us, wherever we are in this world!
Amma is always with us and Amma’s love fills our heart and
soul. Blessed are we to have Amma’s grace and blessings. I
am grateful to receive this blessing and I thank each one of you
for your special prayers which has made me receive the immense grace
of our Beloved Amma!
In September of 2005, I was scheduled for surgery so I emailed AMMA asking for blessings that the surgery would go well. The day before the surgery was to take place I received an email message from AMMA that AMMA would take care of everything. That afternoon in my meditation I saw AMMA step into the body of my surgeon and this vision gave me peace of mind.
The next morning as I was taken into surgery and was beginning to fall under the influence of the anesthesia, my surgeon entered the operating room wearing a white apron with large gray spots all over the front of it. I was so taken with this unusual sight that I asked him “What are you wearing?” His reply: “I am wearing my cow apron”.
Two days later as I was retelling this story to my son I suddenly understood the significance of my surgeon’s apron – his cow apron - was AMMA’s way of reassuring me that AMMA was taking care of me.
Stan Altman, NYC
A Small Miracle
By Stefanie Mercado Altman, New York City USA, 16 years old
On the night I arrived at the Peedam for the first time, my family and I were invited to meet privately with AMMA. At that meeting AMMA materialized a rudhra for me. I treasured the gift and wore it around my neck for guidance and protection. When I returned home to the U.S. I wore it all the time – it was my AMMA GPS device. Since this was a grand gift in my eyes-a gift from the divine and not every person has a manifestation, I was highly concerned with making sure that I knew where my rudhra was all the time. And so to be sure of where it was, I placed it on the altar in my bedroom.
Years later I was away at summer camp and asked my parents to send my rudhra to me which they did. Within a short time I had misplaced my rudhra somewhere in the cabin I was living in. When my parents came to visit at the end of the summer to take me home we looked everywhere but could not find it. We asked the camp owners to look out for the rudhra when the cabin was cleaned but I was heart sick that I had lost this precious gift from AMMA.
When we returned home I was at a fire puja and heard a story that suggested you can never lose a gift from AMMA. I did not understand how this was possible as I had lost my rudhra. Two weeks later my mother opened the night table next to her bed and there was my rudhra. It was then that concept of never losing a gift of AMMA stuck with me, it was all true in the end. Whether the rudhra was manifested for me or not, I would always know deep down that AMMA has infinite love for her children. Her love is always around. And with the reappearance of my rudhra, it was clearly proven that Her love was certainly everywhere.
Three Hindu Graces
By Stefanie Mercado
Your name means protection
Your love is in your weapons
Strength shows boldly in your eyes
An aspect of the divine mother
Everyone knows not to mess with you
Sitting there on your lion
You seem proud
Every blade that you hold shines
With your guidance.
Your name means wealth.
No poverty or grime shows on you.
The many jewels placed upon
Your neck and multiple wrists
Resonate with light
Blinding my sight.
You remind the world to be rich in love
Not material goods.
An aspect of the divine mother,
You’re wealthy as could be.
Your name means creativity.
You stand in front of the temple,
Holding your veena erect.
A sincere smile always shows on your face.
A sweet, mellow vibration comes from your being.
An aspect of the divine mother,
You teach the world to be creative
And never lose hope.
Weapons of guidance,
Jewels of wisdom,
An instrument of intelligence.